Dear folks,
Obviously I should have notified everyone here that I was going to stop writing blog posts but I'll admit that I always thought any day I'd start in again. It has helped me to function more like I don't have a deadly terminal illness without a cure, in some ways and to just get on with living my life and spending less time researching, obsessing, improving, reading the NET blog daily and so forth. I've had the luxury of behaving this way in part because I've felt so good. After describing in the last few blog entries, the side effects of Octreotide injections every 28 days, the resulting abdominal discomfort in my body from the surgeries and the emission of hormones from the tumors themselves; I thought I don't want to be a complainer. I don't want to tell this story, be this person. It isn't fun to write the blog entries unless I can be positive, inspiring, happy and help others that might read it in some way. I know it is ok to be down at times and report how I'm really feeling. I did that several times. The reality is it was very rare and short lived that I felt so down. I've never really owned the disease in the way that it could control me. I live in the moment, grateful for everything that I have every day. I've got a lot to be thankful for and a lot that I love to be and do. I spend a lot of time being in nature, walking in parks, seeing good movies, talking with friends and family.... I'm preparing to go on the canoe journey again this year and can't wait. I've become re-energized around progressive politics and have enjoyed going to marches and rallies, writing emails and making phone calls while sending post cards to the white house. Although I had a brief couple months with a back and leg pain issue that might not have had any association with the bone mets in that region, for the most part I have been more active and happy than ever.
I did stop getting any injections for 10 months which let my body reset and try to find balance after so much change. I felt a lot better over all. However, the studies that showed the newer drug Lanreotide had higher tumor inhibiting properties, led me to start back on injections in February. After 3 injections my body is getting used to it again and I've been feeling mostly well. I've also discovered through creating a spread sheet for tumor growth from each MRI resulting every 6 months that the tumors actually have been growing for some time in my liver. They are growing a couple of millimeters each 6 month time period. The radiologists were comparing each MRI only to the previous MRI and not to multiple past scans. Therefor each resulting report would say there had been no or very little change compared to the previous scan and not list tumor sizes of the top largest 10. So I requested the further data and have been able to track a pretty steady growth rate. The liver functioning labs are still showing pretty good liver health. Other labs like glucagon have been steadily on the rise. It was 1,000 before the surgeries, dropped to 95 and has now slowly risen to 265. Normal range is around 100. So the increase is another sign that tumors are growing. The bone metastases and bone marrow mets have remained stable since the 2013 base line bone scan.
I've made no progress on weight loss and have never really been able to feel comfortable being this much larger. At a NET conference this last Saturday I learned a bit more about the metabolism issue going on with the glucagon, Sandostatin analogue and now Lanreotide along with the missing spleen, gall bladder and part of the pancreas. I've been exercising and eating pretty well but not super disciplined. Its a balanced approach that takes in a large dose of life quality including some sugar, some meat and enjoying Seattle's incredible restaurant scene. I'm not a full blown foodie but have approached that at times with Peter. We love eating out, trying new things, sea food, desert......the atmosphere. Laughing with family and friends and having the occasional glass of wine has replaced strict guidelines of no sugar, no carbs, no alcohol. I do eat organic and consume a lot of vegetables and fruit. I eat very little dairy and enjoy nuts, brown rice, ginger tea, green tea and yes a good cup of coffee daily.
Peter and I have continued enjoying our little boat C-Dancer a C-Dory. It is like boat camping as we explore the San Juan's and Gulf Islands in Canada. Salmon fishing, crabbing and shrimping is fun especially with friends and family aboard. Peter turned 60 in January and I'll join him at 60 on May 21. I love being this age and being retired. I love being a grandma, cooking, gardening, walking, going out, sleeping in and even reading posts on face book and posting pictures on Instagram. Peter has a few more years till retirement but we still manage to carve out a lot of time for fun together. I also get to see my parents pretty often in Olympia. I bring them up here or I visit there but we talk at least weekly and they are doing pretty good following a year with many major health scares last year.
I've enjoyed my grandchildren immensely this last year. A new one was born; Presley turned one on March 8th. She is a real character and joins her 3 year old sister Paityn born on my sister Cindi's birthday. Presley runs and climbs on everything and Paityn sings full songs at the top of her lungs walking around the house and likes to play act dramatic parts of shows she's seen or made up scripts. Jessica and her husband Dominic bought a house in Federal Way and Jessica finally got a new car. She was promoted to the Director of the Dream Project at the UW. I'm really proud of her. I had the honor of speaking at an event that she also spoke at this year. We both helped Launch (formerly CDSA) raise funds at this years luncheon. We also attended a retirement dinner together for one of my old friends, where she was also asked to speak. I watch the girls every Tuesday at her house, which is lovely. We talk almost everyday. She's a great mom!
My other granddaughter Ayana gets to come over to Jessica's too on most Tuesday's. My son Thaddeus brings her over and stays to work on graphic arts jobs on his computer. His son Kimani, my oldest grandchild and only boy is doing great in first grade at a wonderful little private school in Olympia not far from where I grew up, attended school and my parents still live. Ayana, the one I delivered, will be 4 in June and will begin a pre-kindergarten program at Kimani's school, Olympia Community School, next fall. She is tall and beautiful; full of spunky life. Kimani is a polite, darling, inquisitive, smart, young man who is so loving and respectful. All 4 grandkids love being with grandma and Papa Peter as he is affectionately known. My son Thaddeus's wife completed her masters in Naturopathic counseling last June and got a great job very quickly. This allowed Thaddeus to focus once again on his art work and graphic art work while also driving the kids to and from school and various programs. I love his work and have many pieces framed and up on the walls of our house. I admire his perseverance at not giving up his love of art. He is a good dad!
We are happier when we follow our heart and do what we love that is for sure. I will continue to live life fully. A new scan has been approved here in the USA that I had done at Stanford once as part of a Clinical Trial. Although Keiser Permanente has denied my oncologists referral to get the scan at the UWMC I feel pretty sure our appeals will be successful. Once the scan has shown the new extent of the disease I will get myself into a PRRT appointment either here in the US or in Europe. This new radiation system (PRRT) designed explicitly for NET's should be approved here by the FDA by the end of the year. I think I have till mid to late 2018 to act before the tumors become once again life threatening in the liver. I could still opt to go to Germany or Sweden where they've been doing the PRRT for over 15 years. I could also return to my surgeon at Oregon Health Sciences University (OHSU) to have another tumor de-bulking surgery. I wish the Swedish immunology trial was accepting US citizens, I'd love to be a part of that. We'll see what happens.
For anyone who has happened across this and read it after such a long absence in writing, thank you for caring about me. I have no idea how frequently I'll write moving forward. Probably not very often but when and if something big happens I'll make at least a brief entry. Let me also remind anyone reading that I love going on walks with friends to catch up, seeing a good movie or getting a cup of coffee or a treat out. So if you're inclined please call or write me and set up a date to get together. 206-972-9434 (cell/text) and swanjamero@gmail.com or friend me on Facebook.
Thanks again for caring and taking the time to check in. Much love to all.
Full Title
Theranostics of Radiolabeled Somatostatin Antagonists 68Ga-DOTA-JR11 and 177Lu-DOTA-JR11 in Patients with Neuroendocrine TumorsPurpose
The purpose of this study is to assess the use of a peptide called DOTA-JR11 to locate and treat metastatic or inoperable neuroendocrine tumors. DOTA-JR11 is similar to a natural hormone called somatostatin. Receptors for somatostatin are commonly found on the surface of neuroendocrine tumors.In the first part of this study, DOTA-JR11 will be attached to a radioactive substance called gallium-68 and will be given to patients intravenously (by vein). Through PET scanning, researchers can see where the DOTA-JR11 binds, indicating a tumor contains somatostatin receptors. The gallium-68 makes the location of these receptors visible on the PET scan.
In the second part of the study, researchers will attach radioactive lutetium-177 to DOTA-JR11. DOTA-JR11 will bind to a patient's tumor cells in the same way as gallium-68 DOTA-JR11, and it is hoped that the radiation from lutetium-177 will kill those cells. In this part of the study, researchers will determine the safe dose of lutetium-labeled DOTA-JR11 and also examine the drug's effectiveness for treating neuroendocrine tumors.
Eligibility
To be eligible for this study, patients must meet several criteria, including but not limited to the following:- Patients must have a carcinoid or pancreatic neuroendocrine tumor that is metastatic or inoperable.
- At least 4 weeks must pass between the completion of chemotherapy and 6 weeks since local therapies and entry into the study.
- Patients may not have previously received prior radiolabeled therapy (including SIRTs).
- Patients' blood counts must be within normal limits.
- Patients must be able to be walk and do routine activities for more than half of their normal waking hours.
- This study is for patients age 18 and older.
Protocol
15-161
Phase
Pilot
Disease Status
Relapsed or Refractory